Happy 19th Foong Sheng, I hope you see this! I hope you like guys and not girls and stop providing free touching service to all the old/young tikos out there. It's quite ironic to know that we don't really have any photogrpahs together despite knowing each other for more than a decade omgzxzx, next time we shall take one-I promise :) It's been nice growing up with you and so far, you are the only one who proves to be somethings just never change- I still love the same Olivia who always laughs with me and listens to my deep down problems. May you use your youth wisely to impact the lives of children/kids/malays/kids from dysfuntional familes/mentally-disabled children, I wish you allllllllllllllllllllllllll the best. With so much love, MY VERY MATURE FRIEND :-D
i was seriously really touched when i read this. it meant a lot more than presents and the cursory birthday greetings i get from acquaintances. its been 13yrs and going and i really hope that i can keep this friend for life.
sometimes, the older one gets, the harder it is let go. true friends are harder to come by and lasting friends become a rarity.
i'm scared as result day draws nearer. i just got news that suzanne got conditional offer into imperial college and here i am, worrying if i can even make it into a local university. i get secretly stressed out when i have geniuses as friends and i'm just a mediocre student with lower than average results. especially when they start planning for their futures when mine's so bleak and uncertain, i have to try very hard not to go into my emo mode when they start talking about high aspirations.
10yrs down the road, i wonder who will really come out on top. not the qualifications i'm sure, but that definitely helps to open many doors. if i fail to qualify, i wonder what does the almighty have in store for me. i really wanna do medicine or at least be in a line where i can truly give and help people. or perhaps, help to touch their lives little by little in whatever ways i can.
now, i'm really happy for suzanne but utterly depressed for myself as well. it's tiring to have to live up to expectations when you habour no false hopes or delusions about your impending doom. let's pray that the fall will not be too harsh on those around me and i can take this fall with grace. on another note, let's hope that i do not fall at all (: i don't think i can meet the accusing eyes of my parents if i ever do.
sometimes, the more you love and care for the people around you, the harder it is to live your life. but that's my life and i cannot complain. at least i have people who care for me and that's all i ask for. tyvm to all. the 'advice' i'm giving now, i hope it helps. really.
i feel like crying now for the sheer fun of it but it's inauspicious to do so on cny. so ciaos peepos and last word, mr lim still has the ability to make me cry with every little thing he says. one person who's little actions have impacted me in a very big way.