[ 6:12 AM ]
disillusioned.
It's getting so hard that it hurts. I'm getting very, very tired.
I get dreams, unpleasant ones that often jolt me awake in the dead of the night feeling despair and fear.
I'm really scared, and I cannot express it, because it's not expected of me to do so.
I can't deny, I can't hide, and this can only be dealt with in the stealth of the night.
Someday, I'm real frightened that pillars will start collapsing and I'll be buried in the rubble.
But nobody will know, or they'll pretend that they do.
Absolutely nobody will even guess.
And I loathe it when people stare.
-and now, we'll bow our heads and await-
[ 7:15 AM ]
Today is a very important day for one of my bestest friend ever, Aubrey Lee Zi Ying. It is her 18th birthday today which marks a significant milestone in her life. However, I've accepted that such an impotant day should be spent with her boyfriend, which i have yet to meet and never knew his name. *gosh, really!*
Today also marks the 12th year of our friendship and going. This girl has brought much fun and laughter in my pre-teen years and given me unconditional support during my very trying period of Olevels when my studies was utterly cocked up.
It is ok that we were not as close as we used to be because of circumstances but somehow or another, the occasion meetups and chat is enough for me. it's not a must that we have to be super glue sticky in order to remain friends but somehow or another, we just exist in each others lives.
I want to thank you for being there and i hope today will be a wonderful day for you. I lazy to continue typing.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUBREY LEE!
[ 7:21 AM ]
i just had an encounter which i'm not sure i'm to be pissed/elated/discombobulated. i think i found a successor for yanru. the phone call was utterly retarded and pissifying.
for god's sake use some brains la! not scolding yanru. that bloody call just lowered my already not very high opinion of you and made me wanna scrunch you up. and to think i thought i was stupid.
ok cease bitching and watch my lee min ho. you're not worth my precious time.