[ 6:03 AM ]
ok i'm here to scold people again.
first was AO, now Inno.
it's damn annoying when they tell me things last min.
just show how horrible the organisation is
and it pisses everybody off.
especially my parents.
now, because i cannot attend the briefing, i cannot do the camp
and i wanna attend the briefing,
which then disrupts my family holiday plans
and pisses my parents off, majorly
[ 11:00 AM ]
oh no i think i'm stuck in a rut again!
i can sense that it's coming...
it's gonna be another who likes who thingy,
which absolutely gets on my nerves!
ok i shall pull back and not mislead.
this is freaking annoying.
the 2 lizards mating on the wall beside are terribly noisy
and the scene they project is uh, disturbing.
goodnight world (:
presenting to you one of my favourite lullaby:
go to sleep my pretty eyes,
dreams come true.
say goodnight to starry skies,
goodnight to the moon.
sail across the sea of dreams,
to the morning light.
dream, dreams
say goodnight.
[ 8:50 AM ]
christmas was awesome even though i was grounded at home (:
my aunt just did my nails and it looks ah lian ):
i wanna dye my hair!
ok i feel this is such a shallow post.
but oh wells!
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
[ 9:48 AM ]
My sister is sickening.
she keeps taking my clothes without permission and there're so many reasons why that is sickening. and i mean sick-en-ing!
- I believe that what you wear will set the tone for how your day will be like. and i usually will know what i want to wear the next day because number1, i usually rush out of the house so i don't take forever sitting in front of the wardrobe contemplating what to wear. number2, i get extremely annoyed when i can't find the exact piece of garment i have in my mide and will end up finding 3 cupboards, mine, my sis and my mum's and it get freakingly annoying that my clothes end on my sister's back when i spent like forever hunting it. best thing is, she doesn't even ask permission!
- when i want to wear that particular piece of clothing means i WANT to wear THAT piece and no other. not to say i don't have any other but what i want will also so coincidentally disappear when i want it and then magically appear on my sister! wow. i get so irritated looking for my clothes that it totally starts my day off on a horrid note and leaving the house in a bad mood usually does no wonder for the rest of my day.
- it's not as if she doesn't buy her own clothes. no doubt my clothes are definitely way more than hers but so? i mean i don't mind sharing but sharing goes both ways. she always ends up buying some rubbish piece of rag that obviously i wouldn't wear and ya it stays in her cupboard for one year without being touched till the next spring cleaning. and then, she ends up wearing MINE clothes, again. like w.t.f?
- more often than not i end up spending my money on clothes and skipping meals while she happily gets her pocket money and goes off gallivanting. come on. i buy clothes for myself, it ends up for 3 people - my sister, mum and of course myself, and i don't even get reimbursed. best thing is my mum complains that i buy too much clothes?! not even many, but much. seriously what is this? how about go tell your second daughter to get some decent piece of cloth for herself so i can end up buying less and maybe, 'sharing? i totally refuse to even look at the hideous things she and her kuku brain buys. doesn't matter anyway, her clothes are meant to be kept in the cupboard. 'like what? a bright green spaggetti top with brown circular designs? not everyday is save-the-earth day yo?
- and i seriously seriously hate it when she always criticises the things that i buy but then always ends up wearing them like it absolutely normal for her to do that. which sane person actually criticizes and then wear what you criticize?! for what i ask?
- when she searches for clothes in my cupboard, she actually messes up the sequence of things in it. sorry to say that i have OCD but yea keep hands off my things because i'll know it if you so much as to shift 1 t-shirt. and then it messes up all my order and i have to find everything all over again. i don't have the luxury of time every morning because i'm so goddamn tired and in a mad rush.
- damn it i cannot let it go throughout the day when i don't get my way. i'll blame every single thing that went wrong on wearing the undesired clothes and the frustration builds up throughout the day. it's gonna give me high blood pressure or heart attack la.
this must be the oldest child syndrome of extreme selfishness.
but it irks me so when people mess up my day.
and to start a good day off, you must have the correct clothes with the correct gan jue.
and i wholeheartedly believe in that.
i'm a bitch.
but so be it.
[ 5:03 AM ]
they are back.
i won't have to imagine what they're doing over in indonesia while i'm stuck here.
i love them.
i love mr lim.
[ 7:11 PM ]
If i didn't know what a large chunk of my heart he will take when he leaves,
i know now...
puffy eyes today, again.
this must stop...
i hate it that i'm so freaking affected
but i just don't know how to stop it
good tears are good,
only when they don't empty themselves continuously from your tears ducts.
because when that happens, everything else is just irritating
i annoy, myself.
[ 3:57 AM ]
my mum, has officially gotten to my nerves now.
she can dream about having a response from me now.