[ 5:06 AM ]
ok, i'm available for study dates. anyone?
yesterday, i was happy.
but i'm quite sad today :(
and i really really love biao ge!
hearing him talk is, wells like my daddy when he's being normal or unusally intropective.
P is being a retard as usual.
and i love irritating cheryl. maybe the feeling is mutual.
this is so random, but i don't feel like blogging in proper sentences today.
and i think i made boyfriend's day today (:
i need more money and i'm waiting to watch boys over flowers.
i guess i shouldn't continue this senseless twitters.
lee sheng ming if you still don't contact me, watch out.
byebye.
[ 8:50 AM ]
hello world! i shouldn't be blogging but whatever. i promise this will be the last post this month. recently i feel that i've grown more withdrawn into my little shell. but somehow i don't really care anymore, neither do i feel that it's something weird.
i only talk to the people i wish to talk to and i no longer bother being nice to people whom i think do not deserve it. i think i really should be nicer and more sensitive but somehow i really don't give a damn. i blast people straight in their faces when i think i'm right and they're wrong, i no longer hold back horrible comments about other people that should be kept to myself and worst of all, i don't wanna talk to 3/4 of the people around me, giving them short, curt replies.
is it really me or is it the people around me getting more superficial and shallow? i guess it's me and i really need to try and fit in. i'm being too opinionated and bull-headed in my headstrong thinkings which most probably isn't as right as i think they are. i reckon 7/8 of the people around me don't feel like talking to me too so oh wells.
i'm extremely discontented and unfulfilled in jc but mostly my own doings. i want to get out asap, but get out with good results. yet the future fills me with with trepidation and hollowness of losing whatever fragile things that i think i still have within my grasp. actually i'm in a state of discombobulation currently and i really have no clue to what's wrong with me.
i think it's really about me and the problem is me. just shut my face and live in seclusion to avoid being a burden to others. on a sidenote, just being random, i love my daddy because he seems to understand me without words and i sometimes think my mum is totally hilarious in a retarded way.
take care yap cause i love you so!
-our camping days and friendship true-
[ 4:53 AM ]
ok i just went to the library with my friend and missed out a family outing. but being my daddy's favourite girl, of course i wasn't left out of the fun (:
daddy being daddy was weird. he has horrible taste in fashion! gosh he bought me this polo tee which is a disgusting green in colour and insisted that i wore it for him. but but but it was really a horrid green that malays paint their walls with!
can you imagine?! gosh my mum was sniggering away when my daddy proudly presented the shirt. note that i said proudly. ok no choice he was quite stubborn about me parading around in the shirt he bought. hais.
oh and you can really see the similarities/differences in character from the food you eat. mother's day dinner was steamboat and there's a pattern how we eat. daddy and my sequence in taking the different food was the same, mummy and sister. first time i noticed such things after so many years of eating steamboat. try noticing next time when you eat with your family.
ok now i'm officially bored. bye.
[ 6:09 AM ]
my sister just freaking bitched me to the ultimum la! damn angry with her. someday she's gonna piss me off real bad that she's gonna regret ever even thought for crossing my path, and that day should come soon since she's been so guai lan these few days.
one fine day, when the sky's azure blue dotted with cute cotton candy clouds, i'm gonna stretch my hands slowly towards her, circling her slender neck, and poof! i'll wring. then i'll laugh maniacally and cry "ALL HAIL, MURDER!"
-and the clock is ticking-
[ 8:39 AM ]
ZZZOMGDAWDZZZ!! I'm talking to
BINGGUANG online now and i havn't talked to him in like a gazillion number of years mans! SINCE PRIMARY SCHOOL!
BINGGUANG LEH!
we used to 'date' each other online when i first learnt how to use msn. HE TAUGHT ME HOW TO! he actually sets a time and ask me to go online so we can talk?! gosh the things we do when we were young and naive man.
oh i remember there was this once i pangseh-ed him and forgot to go online, CAN YOU BELIEVE HE ACTUALLY CALLED MY HOUSE TO ASK ME WHY I'M NOT ONLINE?! but then again, it just struck me how in the hell did he get my house number when we were never in the same class. haha freaking hilarious. and to think that i felt guilty for ps-ing. wow what a bitch i've become.
not bad leh the nice nice feeling still there when I talk to him (: haha long-lost friendship?! i wonder... because i have the blurred impression that he once told me something before... oh wells.
i do have problems initiating or sustaining convos online or in real life but i think with him no problem leh! comes so naturally and the convo flows (: MUAHAHAH! oh no i think i'm overly-excited now. is that bad?!
haha okok i'm one happy girl now! wahhh
BINGGUANG TALKED TO ME LEH!!!
lalalalalala~