just receieved a call from alicia, super heartwarming.

she called to ask if i was dying or something cause she heard from chuwen.

dang i felt like crying. they do care.

of cos with my daily/periodic dose of entertainment from the boys keeps me sane.

i love my friends!

oh and i pray somebody/something can help mazi soon.

she's so skinny she's barely there now. and she doesn't talk.

even smiling, has become a chore for her.

i forgot to include the random 'i love you' msges from shuhs.

and poor tanxinyi's attempt to ask for a date from all of us.

i went back to stnicks yesterday and of cos that made me a happy girl. went to see mrs tan and i love her so much more than i already did. she's like a mummy to me. used to call and talk to me for 4hrs+ almost every other day when in sj.

she gave me a big hug and said: "bian piao liang le." she said she'll retire and come cj teach me biology last year when i said my bio was dying. she offered to give private tuition at her house but of course i never took her offer because she's the most boring teacher ever. but she's the most caring, gentle and motherly teacher i've ever had. happy teachers' day mrs tan.

it's raining and really dark at home now and tml's the start of prelims!

yet strangely, i feel at peace, ok maybe panicky, and brimming with love to pass around.

i hear my neighbour's windchimes clinking madly, doors and windows slamming, people shouting to close the windows and keep the clothes, the rustling of the soya bean drink packet my sister's opening and lastly,

ironically, mr lim's voice in my head.