Poppies and Daisies.

Profile Entries Links Articulate

This is my sanctuary
Jotted with my occasional, random outbursts.

Berate my musings and I not,
Lest for abler pens,
For I do not care.

cheers!

foong sheng qi olivia.
08 february '91

snsj reddds '07
cjc odac BXI

[ 10:52 AM ]

haha i'm surprised i can still get here
i guess i'm just good with number and alphabets eh?

anyway..

BABY
I LOVE YOU AND I'LL NEVER LET YOU GO
BUT IF I HAVE TO GIRL I THINK THAT YOU SHOULD KNOW
ALL THE LOVE WE SHARED
WILL NEVER BE ERASED
AND I PROMISE YOU THAT YOU WILL NEVER BE REPLACED(:
LOVE

haha and i realise that we're quite smart okay..
we chose really good and appropriate names(:
yay

[ 6:15 AM ]

converation between daddy and i over dinner...

daddy: so how's your results? good?!
me: -ignores-
daddy: i see. so bad huh.
me: ya. -gives the 'duh' look-
daddy: so i need to prepare money to bribe the management of NUS now right.
me: -burst out laughing-

gosh my daddy's freaking sarcastic and hilarious and he understands me! the most unconventional dad award.

-i'll always by daddy's favourite girl-

[ 2:04 AM ]

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are secretly sensitive, but you often put up a
front.

Shy and private, you yearn for security.

You take relationships slowly.

You need lots of reassurances before you can trust.

If you don't get enough sleep, you are: Cranky and a big baby

It's hard to sleep next to you because: You are a light sleeper

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

Your Values Profile

Loyalty:

You value loyalty highly.

You're completely devoted to your friends and family.

Even if they totally screw up, you're still there for them.

Just make sure they're equally loyal to you!

Honesty:

You value honesty a fair amount.

You're honest when you can be, but you aren't a stickler for it.

If a little white lie will make a situation more comfortable, you'll go for it.

In the end, you mostly care about "situational integrity."

Generosity:

You value generosity a fair amount.

You are all about giving, as long as there's some give and take.

Supportive and kind, you don't mind helping out a friend in need.

But you know when you've given too much. You have no problem saying "no"!

Humility:

You value humility highly.

You have the self-confidence to be happy with who you are.

And you don't need to seek praise to make yourself feel better.

You're very modest, and you're keep the drama factor low.

Tolerance:

You value tolerance highly.

Not only do you enjoy the company of those very different from you...

You do all that you can to seek it out interesting and unique friends.

You think there are many truths in life, and you're open to many of them.

The Five Factor Values Test

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are a warm hearted and open minded person. It's easy for you to forgive and forget.

You are a grounded person, but you also leave room for imagination and dreams. You feet may be on the ground, but you're head is in the clouds.

You believe that people see you for how you are, not how you look. But deep down, you know that's not exactly true.

Your near future is a lot like the present, and as far as you're concerned, that's a very good thing.

For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

Inside the Room of Your Soul

Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence

You shine in your ability to relate to and understand others.

Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel.

You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations.

A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict.

You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

You are a Buff Girl!

You've got a boomin' body and a fearless spirit.

Most guys have trouble keeping up with your energy and fitness level.

Competitive and fun loving, you're up for almost anything.

Make sure you pick a guy who doesn't mind getting beaten by a girl!

What Kind of Girl Are You?

[ 8:56 AM ]

Leave a comment in my tagboard and I'll.
1. Tell you why I befriended you.
2. Associate you with a song / movie.
3. Tell a random fact about you.
4. Tell a first memory about you.
5. Associate you with an animal / fruit.
6. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.

bestfriend:
1. I befriended you because of march xp. if not i think i wouldn't have even talked to you at all since i didn't even know you existed before march xp. but nonetheless, you're still bestfriend!
2. graduation song. you make me learn new things every time i talk to you. like graduated like that yea (:
3. you're secretly super funny and bitchy (:
4. my first memory of you is no memory at all! -oops-
5. owl. because you're nocturnal. that's partly because you have afternoon naps?!
6. why the elusive comb?! i never understood that.

nicole ann lee:
1. befriended you because i had no choice but to do so?! you happened to sit beside in in sec3 and tada, the beginnings of something nice!
2. never be replaced. you know why (: haiya wanted to associate you with any song but i guess this is more apt!
3. you suck because you always make me wait for you! did i fall asleep while talking on the phone last night?! i totally forgot cause i was dead shagged.
4. your horsetail! super long and straight and the girl who owes me an ikea basket and an ERASER!
5. guava. shall i say you have seedy eyes?! haha ok i was being random as usual (:
6. haha how often will you continue to give me late night calls? hmmmm.

yap chien yu:

1. hmmm can't actually remember how we became friends. maybe in sec1 i remember you as the girl with dog-like centre parting hair? subsequently is because we were class-mates/bitchmatess/squadmates. tada touched that i recalled our history?!
2. sexy naughty bitchy me. explicit enough hurr (:
3. your thighs are wobbly. not as if you didn't already know that though!
4. first memory is you're a nondescript girl. that's why i cannot remember you at all! but subsequently yes yes you know huh (:
5. mangoes cause you like it. unless changed ready?
6. haha will our children be friends?

tang chee kai:

1. befriended you because i had er... no choice? last year NCO camp. haha
2. the 881 hokkien song. because that's the only hokkien song i know and you're damn hokkien-ish.
3. you're getting fatter and fatter. no offence though! let's work out together (:
4. first memory is you're a chee ko pei!
5. porcupine cause you just remind me of one!
6. do you still think ziwei is hot?!

jodie:

1. because you're my mentee! easy enough hurr (:
2. at the beginning. our relationship had to start right from the beginning with no prior basis, if i make sense to you at all. i hated juniors and you never heard about me. so yea...
3. you're a courageous girl who's not afraid to stand true to what you believe. this is something that i think you're damn good at.
4. you're damn noisy and irritating! but after that i got used to it and haha WE became damn noisy and irritating!
5. durian. a subjective fruit.
6. have you found yourself another mentee? and was i good enough as your mentor?!

happy:

1. because we watched happy tree friends in the library together when we were in sec1. i remember that super vividly. and also your curly auntie hair!
2. shang hai tan song. because you're seriously damn man and lao da-ish now! -nodds-
3. you're doomed to become a xian qi liang mu. -sniggers-
4. highly excitable cause you actually screamed when happy tree friend played too loudly in the library!
5. apples. everybody eats apples! similarly, you eat everything!
6. when are you going to get a boyfriend and how will he be like?!

tanxinyi:

1. sec2 chinese new year decorations when you bully me like hell! gosh im so ashamed to be bullied by someone so much smaller than me. than after that was one whole year of balling.
2. some retarted song. because it suits you.
3. you're damn good tempered. seriously.
4. you're small and a nerd who doesn't talk much.
5. fish-nemo! since you love nemo so much. my mummy threw him away btw.
6. what's your 2.4km timing this year?

xian:

1. because you sat infront of me in sec3. and you kept turning back to talk to me. you abit asked me to memorise your handphone number la!
2. always be my baby. -beams-
3. YOU'RE A FREAKING SPENDTHRIFT! SAVE MONEY!
4. you're a good listener and i like to talk to you.
5. you'll be a wolf. because you're fiercely loyal.
6. will i be the first person to pop up in your mind when you need help?

mund:

1. er actually i also don't know why. HA!
2. flying without wings. you'll fall to your death and i'll laugh!
3. you're hair's really really very soft and nice to touch. im not kidding at all.
4. YOU'RE BOTAK! ans that's super amusing since i havn't since botak for 4yrs in stnicks (:
5. some kinda cat. because you're possessive and territorial.
6. i know you won't tell me but what is the thing that you were fan-ning about?! -AHHHH-

qingqing:

1. because i like you?!
2. chuan shu tian shi. that's the first song that i was made to sing properly by you. go and listen to it someday again.
3. you have nice legs.
4. you're hair's like woah woah woah! someone call the frizz agent mans.
5. canary. xiao huang ying can sing well (:
6. when you will teach me a new song?!

haha if you wanna play then leave a comment saying, " I WANT!"

-i had the best sleep thus far-

[ 6:16 AM ]

[ 5:46 AM ]

i'm not quite myself these days. maybe its the periodical emo kid in me surfacing once again. life's boring the hell outa me. how do i put in? everything's just so mundane and uninteresting and surreal. nothing's was what it used to be.

had a really long talk with meizi in cjc canteen. emphasis on cjc canteen because all nice talks i had in the past were in stnicks canteen. those were the times that i really forged some real friendships that i never regretted going all out for. it seems like its so difficult to feel how i use to feel. i hate jc.

i miss my squadmates and creating chaos at the tauhuay shop after cca. the auntie trusted us so much that she left the shop in our care while she went to the toilet. some of the nice human relationships that time can either strengthen or wash away. reminisence. stnicks girls whisper like how people talk, talk like how people shout and shout like how people scream.

struggling to hold on to some things that i used to have. desperately grasping at straws for survival. things aren't as geniune as they seem nowadays. where were the times when i could just tell my friend straight in the face no matter how offending it was because my friend just knew it. just like that. no need for words for talk is cheap. only comfortable silence and occasional looks to convey messages. how nice the used-to-be. now, its no longer this way. nobody in jc has given me the feeling that we can be friends for a long time like how stnicks has. i don't like the facade where people parade paper masks.

i'll die without friends and similarly i'll go all out for them. but its hard to break old barriers and trust easily. i don't like to and i don't want to. what's more, nobody even bothered to try. i should just be contented with the few who have and succeded. i love you my friends and i know we'll stay this way no matter what. because that's how we're, open and honest. no acts no frills, just us.

its tiresome to grow up. no wonder michael jackson wants to create a netherland where time stands still. i need time to retreat into my shell before emerging with a bundle of energy again. guess i'm just stressed out. i don't like people to think they know how i think and feel when they don't, at all. its obnoxious. what makes them assume that what they see is what i'm feeling? jerks.

oh no im in my bitch fit again. mr kang seems shocked that i know about books that he talks about. do i look stupid or do i look like im an empty airhead? again another facade. but whatever.

huixian (if you're reading this): don't feel so bad. let's just move on and work even harder to prove all the bastards out there that we're worth it. sounds cheesy i know but SO?! remember the story of lindo jong, the art of invisible strength.

ann lee (if you're reading this): what happened to the late night calls? i'm getting irritated when i'm trying my best to at least have some form of contact with you but you just... someday i might just give up you know.

aubrey lee (if you're reading this): you have MIA-ed for a long time. wth?

qingqing (if you're reading this): i miss you singing to me when i'm emo-ing. come back please.

squadmates: i love you.

-30yrs down, we'll still be having high tea like how we used to together-

[ 5:18 AM ]

i love money. i love sleeping. i love ice-cream. i love chocolate. i love strawberry stuff. i love reading. i love teevee. i love movies. i love my friends. i love my squadmates. i love odac. i love wasting time doing nothing. i love my mummy. i love my daddy. i love life.

i haven't been doing what i'm supposed to do this past half year. my mummy told me this when i told her my results,

me: i got 3 Us and 2 Ds
mummy: -stares- you need tuition or not?
me: no need la. bu yao lang fei qian. [i never had tution in my life because i think its a waste of money]
mummy: ok.

--------------------stones----------------------------

me: so you want to go for parent-teacher meeting? my math teacher wanna meet you.
mummy: -silence- you know i don't go and i don't think i need to go cause i trust you to do the right thing. ask your math teacher to call me instead.
me: -stuns and hold back tears- ok.

---------------------hurry run to toilet ---------------------

i feel damn bad for disappointing my mummy when she gives me so much freedom. my results have always been bad till the last minute but somehow i never worry because i'm confident things will turn out right.

but now, i'm not confident, because i know myself.

i suck. i feel stupid and i don't wanna feel stupid.

i did relatively well for psle, i did average for Os and now, i ...

i don't wanna break that trust that my mummy has always placed in me to do the right thing.

i still want that preferential treatment i have over my siblings.

for her, i shall because she has.

it's time to die and resurrect.

-trust, once broken, can never be breached-

[ 5:03 AM ]

this is for you best friend, HELLO!!!

i came to blog just to tell you i cut my hair (:

now you can't say i MIA hurr.

:)

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

people change and some for the better, some become bitches.

but oh whatever, do you seriously think that what you've been doing will get you back wherever you used to be?

well, dream on then.

i love the world, i love myself more. evaporate and stop buzzing round me.

-fair is foul and foul is fair-